So much has happened – good, bad, and ugly.
Life has a funny way of teaching lessons and testing limits. Its been a trial emotionally, mentally, physically, its been hard. Things have changed, things are still changing and I'm not sure what the future holds. It was hope at one point but it was a guarantee, but its been something – a goal, I wanted.
Right now, what's best for me is to go on a leave, to take time for myself away to reevaluate my life, choices, and purpose. In the end of things I put myself in this situation and now I have to walk away for not only my health, but overall well-being. Saying goodbye has never been easy for me, I never want to, but what is right is never easy.
I admit my failings, my short comings, and need for something more than myself. I admit that I need help and I have put aside everything to ask for it at my lowest self.
I am at the lowest I've been in life and up is all that is left. I pray to the gods that I can manage that.
To all my friends, family, acquaintances, commissioners, watchers, commentators, lurkers, supporters, and the online community that has allowed me here – Thank you. Thank you for sticking around, thank you for all of your support both past and present.
Art will be slow, slower, while I get my life and affairs in order. For those with my personal contact information, you can contact me during this time I'll be gone. My commission email will be put into vacation mode for the next few weeks and notes will not be checked. I will still be checking and favoriting from time to time, but overall I will not be spending my days online until I am in a better state.
It takes a tremendous amount of what's left to say this, so goodbye for now, but not forever.
Listening to: what's it for? - Yoko Kanno ~ GiTS: SAC 2nd g